Do you think that in order for you to gain something, you'll always end up losing something?
This thought struck me when I was going out for my dinner. I miss my life back in KL.
I miss family. I miss her. I miss friends. I miss having things to do.
But I knew that to continue my life in KL, I would have to be doing what I'm doing now. Work.
So I have to give up my life in KL so that I can have a life in KL.
Ironic?
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
A time
Book of Ecclesiastes Chapter 3
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
As 2008 is coming to an end, i guess this is a good time to consider what I've done in the past year. This is a time for me to reflect on the past, to consider present and to prepare for the future.
In the beginning of 2008, I made a resolution, a simple one. To minimise my debts, and to have some savings in my bank account.
It was going pretty well for the first 6 months of the year. But everything went downhill from then. Debts grew, savings shrank. And now, debts more than ever,and savings.... just none.
I'm not proud to say that I did pretty badly for this year. And it breaks my heart to say that I have gotten myself into this position. But what has happened can't be undone.
And now, I'm in BKK trying to get some constant cash in to minimise my debts. It's not easy and not getting easier. But i have to make it out.
So, now it's for me to move on, and to carry on my 2008's resolution into 2009.
May 2009 be a year when I finally get my resolution fulfilled.
Happy new year!
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
As 2008 is coming to an end, i guess this is a good time to consider what I've done in the past year. This is a time for me to reflect on the past, to consider present and to prepare for the future.
In the beginning of 2008, I made a resolution, a simple one. To minimise my debts, and to have some savings in my bank account.
It was going pretty well for the first 6 months of the year. But everything went downhill from then. Debts grew, savings shrank. And now, debts more than ever,and savings.... just none.
I'm not proud to say that I did pretty badly for this year. And it breaks my heart to say that I have gotten myself into this position. But what has happened can't be undone.
And now, I'm in BKK trying to get some constant cash in to minimise my debts. It's not easy and not getting easier. But i have to make it out.
So, now it's for me to move on, and to carry on my 2008's resolution into 2009.
May 2009 be a year when I finally get my resolution fulfilled.
Happy new year!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Lek Seafood
Went for this restaurant that I would pass by everyday, but never thought of eating. Just felt like having something different today, and went in and found my place to sit.
It's thai food and very reasonably priced. I had a fried rice with crab meat and a vege, similar to 马来风光, and a bottle of drinking water.
Not that bad.
Lek Seafood
Entrance to restaurant, which can't be seen from the main road.
Kitchen staff working hard... by the main road.
People waiting outside the restaurant...
inside the restaurant...
马来风光, enough for two person... a rarity in portion for food here in BKK.
Fried rice with crab meat, a lot of onions... but it smells and taste great.
It's really a nice place for food, as mainly Thai people that frequent this place. And they would normally come in groups. So it does say something about the quality here. The price is reasonable and the food is good.
The main thing is, strategically located. Easily accessible. Just take the BTS and get off at Chong Nonsi and get out at exit, hmmmm, 2 or 3? haha.. can't remember. And you could see the kitchen when you get off the station.
I enjoyed myself there, and left a satisfied man for just 100 baht.
It's thai food and very reasonably priced. I had a fried rice with crab meat and a vege, similar to 马来风光, and a bottle of drinking water.
Not that bad.
Lek Seafood
Entrance to restaurant, which can't be seen from the main road.
Kitchen staff working hard... by the main road.
People waiting outside the restaurant...
inside the restaurant...
马来风光, enough for two person... a rarity in portion for food here in BKK.
Fried rice with crab meat, a lot of onions... but it smells and taste great.
It's really a nice place for food, as mainly Thai people that frequent this place. And they would normally come in groups. So it does say something about the quality here. The price is reasonable and the food is good.
The main thing is, strategically located. Easily accessible. Just take the BTS and get off at Chong Nonsi and get out at exit, hmmmm, 2 or 3? haha.. can't remember. And you could see the kitchen when you get off the station.
I enjoyed myself there, and left a satisfied man for just 100 baht.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Laziness
Proverbs 24:33-34 (New International Version)
33 A little sleep, a little slumber,
a little folding of the hands to rest-
and scarcity like an armed man.
I've always known these verses since I first believed in Christ in 1997. However, I've never kept it in heart. Never really paid much attention to it.
I was lazy then. As I am now. These verses still are very relevant then and now.
Pray that I will learn, and maybe change to be a better person. Not as lazy...
And this, my Christmas prayer.
Christmas Eve Party
The big boss is not in. The staffs are in holiday mood. Everyone wanna have fun. So someone came up with the brilliant idea of having a lunch party at office, and they made it within an hour. It proves that if they wanna do something, fast and quick, they can make it done.
The deco and the food. We, or rather they, ordered pizza from The Pizza Company-- copycat of Pizza Hut, KFC, and fries from McD. Variety of food makes everyone happier.
After the food, they even had a mini-karaoke session, which I didn't participate. The songs are just not my cuppa tea. They had fun. As for me, it's was ok.
So enjoy the pictures and Merry Christmas.
The deco and the food. We, or rather they, ordered pizza from The Pizza Company-- copycat of Pizza Hut, KFC, and fries from McD. Variety of food makes everyone happier.
After the food, they even had a mini-karaoke session, which I didn't participate. The songs are just not my cuppa tea. They had fun. As for me, it's was ok.
So enjoy the pictures and Merry Christmas.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Be grateful
The theme of the day, or rather yesterday, was to appreciate the things, the happenings of my life.
Not everything has to be "glass half empty". It can also be "glass half full".
But unfortunately, I've always been "glass half empty" sort of people. I've tried looking at things differently, trying to look at things from the good side of it. However, no matter how hard I tried looking at something positively, I'll just end up focusing even more on the negatives of it.
Today's theme is different. It's about being positive. It's about being grateful. It's about appreciating the things in my life, small or big.
1) Stop bitching about how much you don't like the life here. Appreciate that you're given a chance to live at a different country, learn different culture, learn different things.
2) Stop bitching about how difficult it is working here. Appreciate that you have a job in this time of the year where all companies are thinking of laying-off their staffs and minimising cost.
3) Stop bitching about how far you have to walk to work. Appreciate that you have an opportunity to exercise, to keep yourself healthy.
4) Stop bitching about how far your place is from a train station. Appreciate that you've found a place to stay, a safe place as well.
5) And above all, appreciate the chances that God has been giving to you, over and over again. You've disappointed your family members, your beloved, yourself, and most of all, God. So, appreciate the chances, including this one, to become better.
This is indeed what i've told myself, not once or twice, but many times over the years. But I still seem to struggle with it.
I'll still continue to tell myself to be positive, even after numerous times of failing, until one day, I'll be different.
Not everything has to be "glass half empty". It can also be "glass half full".
But unfortunately, I've always been "glass half empty" sort of people. I've tried looking at things differently, trying to look at things from the good side of it. However, no matter how hard I tried looking at something positively, I'll just end up focusing even more on the negatives of it.
Today's theme is different. It's about being positive. It's about being grateful. It's about appreciating the things in my life, small or big.
1) Stop bitching about how much you don't like the life here. Appreciate that you're given a chance to live at a different country, learn different culture, learn different things.
2) Stop bitching about how difficult it is working here. Appreciate that you have a job in this time of the year where all companies are thinking of laying-off their staffs and minimising cost.
3) Stop bitching about how far you have to walk to work. Appreciate that you have an opportunity to exercise, to keep yourself healthy.
4) Stop bitching about how far your place is from a train station. Appreciate that you've found a place to stay, a safe place as well.
5) And above all, appreciate the chances that God has been giving to you, over and over again. You've disappointed your family members, your beloved, yourself, and most of all, God. So, appreciate the chances, including this one, to become better.
This is indeed what i've told myself, not once or twice, but many times over the years. But I still seem to struggle with it.
I'll still continue to tell myself to be positive, even after numerous times of failing, until one day, I'll be different.
Monday, December 8, 2008
holiday season
the holiday season is coming. Christmas is near. and i'm all alone. I know you are too... but no matter what, Jesus is always by our side.
God loves you, and may this be a joyful and blessed Christmas ever... to date....
Some observations...
- there are a lot of stalls selling the same kind of food everywhere in bangkok.
- there are a lot of cars on the road, roads with 4 lanes, which you don't even see at KL.
- there are a lot of motorcycle taxi everywhere in bangkok, you'll see them at every lorong and every jalan.
- there are a lot of vacant shoplots at very big shopping complexes.
- there are a lot stray dogs everywhere in bangkok.
- there are a lot of gwai lo going out with thai ladies, middle aged ladies to be exact.
- there are a lot of young ladies everywhere in bangkok, but most are attached to a local guy.
- there are a lot of guys that carry their girlfriends' handbags, but not hold their hands.
- there are a lot of taxis everywhere in bangkok, of pink and all variety of colours.
- there are a lot of different public transports available; red bus, motorcycle taxi, taxi, buses, skytrain, mrt, tuk-tuk, mini bus.
- there are a lot of delivery service available in bangkok; McDonald's, Pizza Hut, Sushi, Indian Food, ladies....
- there are a lot of Japanese restaurants in my office area alone; Oishii, Ootoya, Aoringo, Fuji...
- there are a lot of Italian cum pizza restaurant available....
- there are a lot of the King's portrait at every single place; makro, office buildings, Pan Pac hotel...
- there are a lot of coffee stalls ala StarBucks-styled by the road side, selling frappucino for 20baht....
- and more observations to come.....
- there are a lot of cars on the road, roads with 4 lanes, which you don't even see at KL.
- there are a lot of motorcycle taxi everywhere in bangkok, you'll see them at every lorong and every jalan.
- there are a lot of vacant shoplots at very big shopping complexes.
- there are a lot stray dogs everywhere in bangkok.
- there are a lot of gwai lo going out with thai ladies, middle aged ladies to be exact.
- there are a lot of young ladies everywhere in bangkok, but most are attached to a local guy.
- there are a lot of guys that carry their girlfriends' handbags, but not hold their hands.
- there are a lot of taxis everywhere in bangkok, of pink and all variety of colours.
- there are a lot of different public transports available; red bus, motorcycle taxi, taxi, buses, skytrain, mrt, tuk-tuk, mini bus.
- there are a lot of delivery service available in bangkok; McDonald's, Pizza Hut, Sushi, Indian Food, ladies....
- there are a lot of Japanese restaurants in my office area alone; Oishii, Ootoya, Aoringo, Fuji...
- there are a lot of Italian cum pizza restaurant available....
- there are a lot of the King's portrait at every single place; makro, office buildings, Pan Pac hotel...
- there are a lot of coffee stalls ala StarBucks-styled by the road side, selling frappucino for 20baht....
- and more observations to come.....
Saturday, December 6, 2008
In response to the entry...
表现与表达
yup, i'm still facing the same issues of worrying about how i would cope and perform.
yup, i'm still trying to figure out a way for myself to work.
yup, i'm still lost and worried.
yup, i've got a new job, again.
yup, i'm at a totally different environment with totally different people (yes, this time i'm sure).
so, in short, i'm still me...... after 5 months....
wow....
yup, i'm still facing the same issues of worrying about how i would cope and perform.
yup, i'm still trying to figure out a way for myself to work.
yup, i'm still lost and worried.
yup, i've got a new job, again.
yup, i'm at a totally different environment with totally different people (yes, this time i'm sure).
so, in short, i'm still me...... after 5 months....
wow....
The day is coming
As my sis said, I should have written an entry regarding the BIG day.
Yes, I'm getting married. Muahahahahhahaha....
This entry seems kinda late as the decision was made a couple of months back, but hey, better late than never, right?
Anyway, the most important thing is that, the date is set, the partner is confirmed... and yeah, i'm getting married!!!!!
Yes, I'm getting married. Muahahahahhahaha....
This entry seems kinda late as the decision was made a couple of months back, but hey, better late than never, right?
Anyway, the most important thing is that, the date is set, the partner is confirmed... and yeah, i'm getting married!!!!!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Lazy...
Been telling others, esp my woman, that i'll start writing all that's on my mind and share it with ppl that might come across this blog.
But i've not done any of that for the past many many months. The main reason is that i'm just lazy. And never really had the heart to write anything, even though there's a lot on mind at any given time.
Now that i've relocated to Bangkok, i'm, and others, hoping that i would start to write regularly and at least once a week, so that others would know what is going on with me.
So to kick start, this is my first post in Bangkok. And more will come. *fingers crossed*
But i've not done any of that for the past many many months. The main reason is that i'm just lazy. And never really had the heart to write anything, even though there's a lot on mind at any given time.
Now that i've relocated to Bangkok, i'm, and others, hoping that i would start to write regularly and at least once a week, so that others would know what is going on with me.
So to kick start, this is my first post in Bangkok. And more will come. *fingers crossed*
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Letter to PM
Just to share this letter from another blog,Cranium Tattoos.
Dearest Prime Minister,
FUCK YOU !!
Since the disastrous March 8 elections, I haven't bothered attacking you much. Well, why should I when the Pakatan Rakyat, Raja Petra and your own Ministers are already doing such a thorough job. And oh, not forgetting all the salivating vultures waiting to push you down the UMNO ladder. There's also the issue of this bloody old mamak who used to be your boss... but that's a different story.
I may scorn at your intelligence (or lack thereof), amaze at the voodoo spell your Son In Law has you under, laugh at the blind arrogance of your Government and shake my head at your cluelessness in private, but as far as this blog is concerned, I took a break from whacking you and all that you stand for.
Well it ends today.
Coz I'm fuckin' pissed.
Like REALLY motherfuckin 'FUCK YOU BASTARD' sort of pissed, you backwater retard..!
Today I spent 2 hours caught in a fuckin' traffic jam coming back from work. As I sat in the fuckin' snarl watchin' the faces of other drivers who looked like they were ready to break stuff, I realised that how every single fuckin' thing that went wrong today all points at you.
Like a fuckin' Night Shymalan movie or finale of LOST, everything is related and all dots connect to spell a FUCK YOU BN. Realisation hits me that the fuckin' 2 hours of my life that I could NEVER get back boils down to one simple fuckin' fact: The country got it SOOOO fuckin' wrong in 2004 when they put you as the gaffer of this country.
Cibai.
How, you ask..? Shut the fuckup and listen.
It rained today. REALLY heavy. As a result, all roads in Kuala Lumpur came to a stand still. Why? Is it because all cars in the capital of Malaysia is made out of paper and will disintegrate in the rain? Fuck, no.
Everything came to a halt because any downpour more than 15 minutes causes "flash floods" in the most traffic-heavy parts of the city. As fast as money disappears under Khir Toyo's administration, water levels will rise whenever it pours in KL. Causing many parts of the big city to become inaccessible. And jammed. Filled with angry motorists and stranded commuters.
We have a SMART Tunnel. Which "supposedly" helps to drain water out during floods. We have public transportation. Which "supposedly" means less vehicles on the road. We have mega criss-crossing highways littered with toll booths. Which "supposedly" provides easy access to different parts of Klang Valley.
But that's all our country is good for. Launching something and letting monkeys run it. NONE OF THOSE FUCKING THINGS WORK PROPERLY. Or at all. Is it so surprising? No. When they fuckup the basics like having a proper drainage system so that water does not accumulate during heavy rainfall, what more can you expect?
Simply put, heavy rains are beyond our control. How we deal with it is not. Or shouldn't be.
Fuck all the talk about "winning the 5 States back" when you can't even address the problems blowing up in your own backyard one by fucking one.
So with the fucking rain causing enough havoc as it is... then came the fuckin' announcement that effective from 12am midnight, petrol prices will increase to RM2.70 a litre from RM1.92.
WHAT A FUCKING JOKE. They couldn't have timed it better. Only days ago one of the lackeys from the PM's office gave a press statement saying the prices will increase by August. PM himself said before earlier this year that there won't be a price hike.
But I guess we all know this is the same guy who CONVINCINGLY DECLARED on Tuesday that Parliament won't be dissolved on Wednesday when it actually did came the day.
If he was Pinocchio he could represent Malaysia in pole vaulting in Beijing using his blower only.
So right after the Govt assured us that petrol prices won't go up, it did. And the timing of it. Announcing it will go up tomorrow. It's like a man coming into a building shouting, "HEY GUYS RUN. I HAVE A BOMB AND ITS BLOWING IN A FEW SECONDS".
The announcement, as predicted, sparked a fuckin' frenzy on the roads. Every bloody motor owner drove out all their vehicles to quickly fill up their tanks while it's still pre-hike price. This caused the laws of the jungle to quickly emerge as lines after fuckin' lines zig-zagged into jam-packed petrol stations amidst the blaring of horns and cursing of profanities in a multitude of languages.
Snarling, bustling and frenzied traffic from every petrol station overflowed onto highways and unflooded roads already under massive burden of having to carry extra vehicles as a result of other flooded roads which become the link between a tired worker's office to his home.
The result ?
A FUCKING ROYAL RUMBLE OFFROAD MADNESS which lasted 2 hours for me when it usually takes me 20-30mins to reach home from office.
FUCK THE PETROL HIKE! Unfuckin' believable jam is but the beginning. Inflation is bound to hit hard at everyone's pockets.
Granted the price of oil is escalating globally. Granted the American economy crisis is having some spillover effect to world economics.
But we're a FUCKING PETROL PRODUCING NATION!!! Like Saudi. It's 40 sen a litre over there. We're a fuckin' nation that produces motherfuckin' oil. OIL!!! And yet we're saying we can't do anything. Simple economics dictates that if you PRODUCE OIL, and OIL prices go up, you GET BIGGER PROFITS DON'T YOU?!?!
Petronas rakes in billions EVERY fuckin' year. Yet the government says it can't subsidise us without major cutbacks in other areas like healthcare and shit. FUCK YOU ALL. Just cutback on the kickbacks and under counter money and we'll have enough to subsidise petrol to be under RM1 per litre.
This is what happens when you take village-like, count-up-to-10-with-fingers fuckers to fill in top posts in the Government and Cabinet. This is what happens when you have a despotic party overstaying its fat stay at the top of the foodchain.
This is a fuckin' joke I tell ya. First the price of flour. Then cooking oil. Then price of pork. Now petrol.
CIBAI KHEONG KAN LEMA KA CHAO CIBAI.
FUCK YOU, you and you. All of you.
YES BARISAN NASIONAL, UMNO and the ENTIRE Badawi Administration. This is your encore.
GET THE FUCK OUT.
Dearest Prime Minister,
FUCK YOU !!
Since the disastrous March 8 elections, I haven't bothered attacking you much. Well, why should I when the Pakatan Rakyat, Raja Petra and your own Ministers are already doing such a thorough job. And oh, not forgetting all the salivating vultures waiting to push you down the UMNO ladder. There's also the issue of this bloody old mamak who used to be your boss... but that's a different story.
I may scorn at your intelligence (or lack thereof), amaze at the voodoo spell your Son In Law has you under, laugh at the blind arrogance of your Government and shake my head at your cluelessness in private, but as far as this blog is concerned, I took a break from whacking you and all that you stand for.
Well it ends today.
Coz I'm fuckin' pissed.
Like REALLY motherfuckin 'FUCK YOU BASTARD' sort of pissed, you backwater retard..!
Today I spent 2 hours caught in a fuckin' traffic jam coming back from work. As I sat in the fuckin' snarl watchin' the faces of other drivers who looked like they were ready to break stuff, I realised that how every single fuckin' thing that went wrong today all points at you.
Like a fuckin' Night Shymalan movie or finale of LOST, everything is related and all dots connect to spell a FUCK YOU BN. Realisation hits me that the fuckin' 2 hours of my life that I could NEVER get back boils down to one simple fuckin' fact: The country got it SOOOO fuckin' wrong in 2004 when they put you as the gaffer of this country.
Cibai.
How, you ask..? Shut the fuckup and listen.
It rained today. REALLY heavy. As a result, all roads in Kuala Lumpur came to a stand still. Why? Is it because all cars in the capital of Malaysia is made out of paper and will disintegrate in the rain? Fuck, no.
Everything came to a halt because any downpour more than 15 minutes causes "flash floods" in the most traffic-heavy parts of the city. As fast as money disappears under Khir Toyo's administration, water levels will rise whenever it pours in KL. Causing many parts of the big city to become inaccessible. And jammed. Filled with angry motorists and stranded commuters.
We have a SMART Tunnel. Which "supposedly" helps to drain water out during floods. We have public transportation. Which "supposedly" means less vehicles on the road. We have mega criss-crossing highways littered with toll booths. Which "supposedly" provides easy access to different parts of Klang Valley.
But that's all our country is good for. Launching something and letting monkeys run it. NONE OF THOSE FUCKING THINGS WORK PROPERLY. Or at all. Is it so surprising? No. When they fuckup the basics like having a proper drainage system so that water does not accumulate during heavy rainfall, what more can you expect?
Simply put, heavy rains are beyond our control. How we deal with it is not. Or shouldn't be.
Fuck all the talk about "winning the 5 States back" when you can't even address the problems blowing up in your own backyard one by fucking one.
So with the fucking rain causing enough havoc as it is... then came the fuckin' announcement that effective from 12am midnight, petrol prices will increase to RM2.70 a litre from RM1.92.
WHAT A FUCKING JOKE. They couldn't have timed it better. Only days ago one of the lackeys from the PM's office gave a press statement saying the prices will increase by August. PM himself said before earlier this year that there won't be a price hike.
But I guess we all know this is the same guy who CONVINCINGLY DECLARED on Tuesday that Parliament won't be dissolved on Wednesday when it actually did came the day.
If he was Pinocchio he could represent Malaysia in pole vaulting in Beijing using his blower only.
So right after the Govt assured us that petrol prices won't go up, it did. And the timing of it. Announcing it will go up tomorrow. It's like a man coming into a building shouting, "HEY GUYS RUN. I HAVE A BOMB AND ITS BLOWING IN A FEW SECONDS".
The announcement, as predicted, sparked a fuckin' frenzy on the roads. Every bloody motor owner drove out all their vehicles to quickly fill up their tanks while it's still pre-hike price. This caused the laws of the jungle to quickly emerge as lines after fuckin' lines zig-zagged into jam-packed petrol stations amidst the blaring of horns and cursing of profanities in a multitude of languages.
Snarling, bustling and frenzied traffic from every petrol station overflowed onto highways and unflooded roads already under massive burden of having to carry extra vehicles as a result of other flooded roads which become the link between a tired worker's office to his home.
The result ?
A FUCKING ROYAL RUMBLE OFFROAD MADNESS which lasted 2 hours for me when it usually takes me 20-30mins to reach home from office.
FUCK THE PETROL HIKE! Unfuckin' believable jam is but the beginning. Inflation is bound to hit hard at everyone's pockets.
Granted the price of oil is escalating globally. Granted the American economy crisis is having some spillover effect to world economics.
But we're a FUCKING PETROL PRODUCING NATION!!! Like Saudi. It's 40 sen a litre over there. We're a fuckin' nation that produces motherfuckin' oil. OIL!!! And yet we're saying we can't do anything. Simple economics dictates that if you PRODUCE OIL, and OIL prices go up, you GET BIGGER PROFITS DON'T YOU?!?!
Petronas rakes in billions EVERY fuckin' year. Yet the government says it can't subsidise us without major cutbacks in other areas like healthcare and shit. FUCK YOU ALL. Just cutback on the kickbacks and under counter money and we'll have enough to subsidise petrol to be under RM1 per litre.
This is what happens when you take village-like, count-up-to-10-with-fingers fuckers to fill in top posts in the Government and Cabinet. This is what happens when you have a despotic party overstaying its fat stay at the top of the foodchain.
This is a fuckin' joke I tell ya. First the price of flour. Then cooking oil. Then price of pork. Now petrol.
CIBAI KHEONG KAN LEMA KA CHAO CIBAI.
FUCK YOU, you and you. All of you.
YES BARISAN NASIONAL, UMNO and the ENTIRE Badawi Administration. This is your encore.
GET THE FUCK OUT.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Understanding Oneself
how well do you know yourself? honestly...
Me? not that well.
How long would it take to know yourself? honestly...
Me? it seems to be taking forever.
How important is it to know yourself? honestly...
Me? I don't know but i think it should be important.
Me? not that well.
How long would it take to know yourself? honestly...
Me? it seems to be taking forever.
How important is it to know yourself? honestly...
Me? I don't know but i think it should be important.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
表现与表达
got me think while watching 超级星光大道...
one of the judges said that contestants were too busy trying to 表现themselves on stage and too preoccupied with their performance till the extent of forgetting how to sing and present their songs or 表达 their songs to the audience.
he said, when contestants tried too hard to make themselves the star or 主角， they will lose focus and eventually fail to present the songs as well as they should. They should then try to make the songs as the focus point, let themselves fade to the background or 配角 and the let the songs do the talking.
After watching the show, i started thinking... i have been worried for the past 2 weeks since i was offered a job at a totally new environment with a totally different type of people (i'm not really sure, just guessing)...
I was too concerned with how would i do in this new role and am worried sick of how would i cope with all the pressure and responsibilities...
so i've decided, in short, to ignore myself for the time being... and just do the job as i have for the past few years. It may not be the same, specifically，but i'm sure i'll find a lot of similarities to the stuff i've been doing... Fade into the background and let the finished work do the talking...
May God bless me.....
one of the judges said that contestants were too busy trying to 表现themselves on stage and too preoccupied with their performance till the extent of forgetting how to sing and present their songs or 表达 their songs to the audience.
he said, when contestants tried too hard to make themselves the star or 主角， they will lose focus and eventually fail to present the songs as well as they should. They should then try to make the songs as the focus point, let themselves fade to the background or 配角 and the let the songs do the talking.
After watching the show, i started thinking... i have been worried for the past 2 weeks since i was offered a job at a totally new environment with a totally different type of people (i'm not really sure, just guessing)...
I was too concerned with how would i do in this new role and am worried sick of how would i cope with all the pressure and responsibilities...
so i've decided, in short, to ignore myself for the time being... and just do the job as i have for the past few years. It may not be the same, specifically，but i'm sure i'll find a lot of similarities to the stuff i've been doing... Fade into the background and let the finished work do the talking...
May God bless me.....
tranny
saw one of our "super"model in our Boleh-land the other day... Ms. Amber.
She looks like a tranny... no offence to her fans..... and of course Ms. Amber....
She looks like a tranny... no offence to her fans..... and of course Ms. Amber....
sick
I have been sick the whole week...
Tried to rest a while.... but couldn't, think i've rested too much for the past one week...
Will be starting a different phase of my life soon... very soon... kinda scared...
Jumping outta my comfort zone and doing something totally different... really scared the shit outta me...
May God bless me....
Tried to rest a while.... but couldn't, think i've rested too much for the past one week...
Will be starting a different phase of my life soon... very soon... kinda scared...
Jumping outta my comfort zone and doing something totally different... really scared the shit outta me...
May God bless me....
Monday, February 11, 2008
Thursday, February 7, 2008
新年啦！！！
恭喜发财！！！！ 今天是大年初一，那理所当然昨晚就是。。。
万众期待。。。。。
全城瞩目。。。。。
除夕夜咯！
又到了一年一度， 大家坐在一起吃团圆饭的时候。 但今年就有一点不一样了，因为我哥就刚刚在去年尾娶了个美丽的老婆， 所以就多了一个人。
我们的团圆饭menu:
1) 清蒸石斑 - RM 30
2) 烧鸭与烧肉 - RM 30
3) 冬菇，broccoli, 鱼漂- RM 25
4) 鱼生- RM 30
5) 紫菜鱼丸汤- RM 20
6) 生菜- RM 5
7) 一家人开开心心吃团圆饭- Priceless
万众期待。。。。。
全城瞩目。。。。。
除夕夜咯！
又到了一年一度， 大家坐在一起吃团圆饭的时候。 但今年就有一点不一样了，因为我哥就刚刚在去年尾娶了个美丽的老婆， 所以就多了一个人。
大家围在一起的吃饭的感觉就很温馨，很乐融融。。。 这就是团圆的意思吧。。。 
1) 清蒸石斑 - RM 30
2) 烧鸭与烧肉 - RM 30
3) 冬菇，broccoli, 鱼漂- RM 25
4) 鱼生- RM 30
5) 紫菜鱼丸汤- RM 20
6) 生菜- RM 5
7) 一家人开开心心吃团圆饭- Priceless
Sunday, February 3, 2008
潇洒
It's never easy as it seems to let go of something. Be it a car, old magazines or memories.
There was a time when i had to let go of something, a memory---- a painful memory. It was a struggle-- it is still a struggle-- to come to terms with it.
I tried real hard, i think, to let it go. Just move on, i told myself. But it wasn't easy. No. It was close to impossible.
I tried, it failed. Again i tried, again i failed. Gaining little success each try.
A song and its lyrics struck my heart recently;
There was a time when i had to let go of something, a memory---- a painful memory. It was a struggle-- it is still a struggle-- to come to terms with it.
I tried real hard, i think, to let it go. Just move on, i told myself. But it wasn't easy. No. It was close to impossible.
I tried, it failed. Again i tried, again i failed. Gaining little success each try.
A song and its lyrics struck my heart recently;
若他還是當年的路人甲
我或許還能保持昔日瀟灑
面對 出局的紅卡
此時 只能裝聾作啞
若他還是當年的路人甲
我或許還能保持昔日瀟灑
淡然一句 做朋友吧
把我的心 敲碎了 那一剎
If he was just some nobody, maybe i could easily let the memory goes and just simply forget about it. But he wasn't just some nobody, he was SOMEBODY.
However, i'm determined to do whatever it takes to get myself over this struggle and learn to accept what has been and look forward to what can be.
So, i leave to you this song...
我或許還能保持昔日瀟灑
面對 出局的紅卡
此時 只能裝聾作啞
若他還是當年的路人甲
我或許還能保持昔日瀟灑
淡然一句 做朋友吧
把我的心 敲碎了 那一剎
If he was just some nobody, maybe i could easily let the memory goes and just simply forget about it. But he wasn't just some nobody, he was SOMEBODY.
However, i'm determined to do whatever it takes to get myself over this struggle and learn to accept what has been and look forward to what can be.
So, i leave to you this song...
不管未来会怎麽样
至少我们现在很开心
不管结局会怎麽样
至少想念的人是你
我不会把它当作游戏
因为我真心对你
总有些话是不能提
怕你会掉入选择题
我把情感自私的那一面
隐藏在黑夜里
至少我们现在很开心
不管结局会怎麽样
至少想念的人是你
我不会把它当作游戏
因为我真心对你
总有些话是不能提
怕你会掉入选择题
我把情感自私的那一面
隐藏在黑夜里
Enjoy....
Friday, February 1, 2008
reason
This is a blog, where people write about their stories, their feelings, their opinions, their thoughts on just about anything. You can write about your friends' weddings, how ever good looking you are, and you can even write about how big, or how small, your dick is. I know one that writes about balls and coconuts....
So, naturally, when you write, you'll expect someone would read it. Now, maybe not many would read it, but at least, there's a chance of someone, accidentally or unknowingly, stumble upon your blog and reads about it. I'm hoping some would, eventually, stumble upon this blog...
I read a lot blogs, all sorts of blogs. Blogs written by friends, people i do not know and even my sister's blog. And sometimes, i wonder about the things these people write about. Some are really funny, e.g. osim ad by kenny sia, some are nothing but stupid (in my biased opinion)...
But irregardless of what these people write, one thing that i admire them is their ability to write. I, for one, am trying to learn to write.
Not just writing, but being able to write to intrigue, ok, maybe that's too much to ask. But at least i was hoping to be able to write what's on my mind.
This may seem easy to some, but definitely not to me. I have this writing block-- i don't even know if it's considered one-- i'm afraid what i write would offend others.
I've read comments by readers that sounds similar to a death threat, and some mild ones, that simply say "your blog sucks". And i've read the responses by the writers to all these comments, most of them would say "fuck you! this is my blog and i can write what i want! if you don't like it, don't read it!"
I know i would resort to such response if i ever get any cruel comments, but deep inside, i'm asking myself, whether this is really the way to do it. I mean, some comments may sound harsh, but they do have the right to voice their opinion just as the writers have the right to publish their writings.
So, i, again, asked myself if i'm able to take all comments graciously or not. And the answer is, i can't. I'm too stubborn and egoistic to ever admit that my writing sucks.
That's the reason why i do not update my blog often.
So, naturally, when you write, you'll expect someone would read it. Now, maybe not many would read it, but at least, there's a chance of someone, accidentally or unknowingly, stumble upon your blog and reads about it. I'm hoping some would, eventually, stumble upon this blog...
I read a lot blogs, all sorts of blogs. Blogs written by friends, people i do not know and even my sister's blog. And sometimes, i wonder about the things these people write about. Some are really funny, e.g. osim ad by kenny sia, some are nothing but stupid (in my biased opinion)...
But irregardless of what these people write, one thing that i admire them is their ability to write. I, for one, am trying to learn to write.
Not just writing, but being able to write to intrigue, ok, maybe that's too much to ask. But at least i was hoping to be able to write what's on my mind.
This may seem easy to some, but definitely not to me. I have this writing block-- i don't even know if it's considered one-- i'm afraid what i write would offend others.
I've read comments by readers that sounds similar to a death threat, and some mild ones, that simply say "your blog sucks". And i've read the responses by the writers to all these comments, most of them would say "fuck you! this is my blog and i can write what i want! if you don't like it, don't read it!"
I know i would resort to such response if i ever get any cruel comments, but deep inside, i'm asking myself, whether this is really the way to do it. I mean, some comments may sound harsh, but they do have the right to voice their opinion just as the writers have the right to publish their writings.
So, i, again, asked myself if i'm able to take all comments graciously or not. And the answer is, i can't. I'm too stubborn and egoistic to ever admit that my writing sucks.
That's the reason why i do not update my blog often.
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